My Story (or at least some of it)

I am a daughter, sister, wife, mother and friend. Above all of this I am a true believer and follower of Jesus Christ.

Although, it didn't always used to be this way.

When I was younger I was wreckless and rebellious. I was a deliquent and did many, many things I was not supposed to do. I was very manipulative and had many different faces. I drank and did drugs and witnessed many different things a young person should never have to see. I did believe in God but truly thought He had given up on me and therefore I did not like or respect Him.

Little did I know He had a plan for me.

One day, while drinking myself silly on my balcony with some friends, I heard an inner voice ask me "What the hell are you doing? You deserve so much better than this!" (I believe in treatment they call that a moment of clarity. ) Of course it didn't stop me from drinking that night but it did start a chain reaction of events that lead me to where I am today.

I did check myself into treatment not long after that event and I have been sober every since. That was on March 3, 2000.

Since that time I have graduated from college with a B.S. in Geography specializing in cultures. I have found the love of my life, Jeff, and we got married on May 27, 2006. Very soon after that we got pregnant (surprise!) and we had Gracie on March 17, 2007. We moved to SC in June of 2007 and we had our son, Donovan, on February 10, 2010.

I have been blessed in so many ways. I have the love of a good man, 2 beautiful children, the support and love of a wonderful family and amazing friendships that have lasted through good and bad. I know that God has a purpose for my life and I am so grateful that He has given me a second chance at living.

Thursday, February 28, 2013


People have asked me why I go to Belize on missions. There's so much that needs to be done here at home, why go all the way down there? And why would you keep going?
The truth...I don't know the reason. What I do know is there's a place, in my heart that only God can reach and speak to. A place where I can hear Him and have a converstaion about my feelings and my purpose. He doesn't give me all the answers but He helps me understand the things I do need to know presently. He has called me to serve abroad. Trust me, I have had the conversation of serving here at home. He has assured me that, when the time comes, I will be needed here but the things I am doing here (like Celebrate Recovery) are enough for now and my service is needed in Belize. When I have asked why, He has just asked me to trust Him. And I do.
Both times I have been to Belize, He has shown me the reason for each trip. He doesn't give away any information about future trips, just the trip He wants me to prepare for.
And I am so glad I didn't choose to ignore Him, which can be so easy to do. And I have several excuses: too much $, leaving my kids, interference with school (which is another area I was told, by Him, to pursue so I could be equipped to serve in the future), potential risks to my health, etc. But when those thoughts come up, He patiently reminds me how He's always been there, right by my side, protecting me and loving me with every step I take.

So my answer is I go because I am being an obedient daughter and servant to our Father, the King.

Some may not udnerstand that but it is the only answer I have right now. My hope and prayer is that if you feel a calling to go....wherever it might be and whatever fears you might have...please go. You might get resistance from others but He does reward those who listen and seek Him out through the calling and purpose He has for each of us.
I am so thankful and blessed to be able to say that I not only have an amazing network of family and friends that support me and love me here in the states, but I also have extended family in Belize.

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