My Story (or at least some of it)

I am a daughter, sister, wife, mother and friend. Above all of this I am a true believer and follower of Jesus Christ.

Although, it didn't always used to be this way.

When I was younger I was wreckless and rebellious. I was a deliquent and did many, many things I was not supposed to do. I was very manipulative and had many different faces. I drank and did drugs and witnessed many different things a young person should never have to see. I did believe in God but truly thought He had given up on me and therefore I did not like or respect Him.

Little did I know He had a plan for me.

One day, while drinking myself silly on my balcony with some friends, I heard an inner voice ask me "What the hell are you doing? You deserve so much better than this!" (I believe in treatment they call that a moment of clarity. ) Of course it didn't stop me from drinking that night but it did start a chain reaction of events that lead me to where I am today.

I did check myself into treatment not long after that event and I have been sober every since. That was on March 3, 2000.

Since that time I have graduated from college with a B.S. in Geography specializing in cultures. I have found the love of my life, Jeff, and we got married on May 27, 2006. Very soon after that we got pregnant (surprise!) and we had Gracie on March 17, 2007. We moved to SC in June of 2007 and we had our son, Donovan, on February 10, 2010.

I have been blessed in so many ways. I have the love of a good man, 2 beautiful children, the support and love of a wonderful family and amazing friendships that have lasted through good and bad. I know that God has a purpose for my life and I am so grateful that He has given me a second chance at living.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

"Watch me Mommy"

This is a phrase I hear at least 20 times a day. Gracie, my 3 year old, is always coming up with the littlest things to do to get my attention and usually to make me laugh. She thinks she is very creative by making a funny little face or putting a purse on head and calling it a hat. And yes it makes me laugh every time.
But I will admit that it does get a little frustrating (and annoying) to hear "Mommy watch me!" 20 times in 60 seconds. Of course I try very hard not to show I am frustrated or annoyed with her. For she is just being her sweet little self.
Today, however, it made me realize that she is actually trying to do me a favor. Sometimes I get so caught up in my own things; cleaning, errands, phone calls, cooking etc. that I don't take the time to just stop and appreciate the small things in my life. I can get so focused on one thing that it's difficult to see other things going on around me. Gracie is helping me to remember to stop and enjoy those smiles and giggles, little hugs and kisses, little moments of silliness and playfulness.
I am so very grateful to have this sweet little girl in my life. I have often prayed to God to give me some patience, willingness and understanding. To help me slow down and understand that not everything has to be done in one day. He heard me and sent me an angel named Gracie.

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